Rush me the fuck out of here. This place in time and space called “the USA” is so fucked up by “the white man disease” for their absolute ability to intentionally in 2000 and EIGHTEEN, aka 2018.

Even I the shell of a white guy has never allowed to be inside out. At 47 unfortunately the only thing I have in common with the “current president” IS June 14 as a birthday. Flag day in this land that exists on MF bullshit other than “white man SAID” in their OWN individual “minds”, not man kind. I am on trial for survival by those I was told loved me, my dna family and a cunt sister-in-law who also has “the white man said” because my brothers lips have become her clit. She is a coward with power, very similar to (oh she is PTA president) the current president but in the homes of hidden woes they have but fake and pretend or showing face at weddings and funerals that I stayed away from and had a close relationship with my grandfather, my dear aunt Kathy was slowly dying of prostate cancer while my mom nursed her care the last 4 months of her life until she took her last breath coincidentally another June 14th 2015, I went up in April for a week to help declutter 30 years of stuff.. when she died my dirty ass sister-in-law (although we didn’t know it had another ulterior motive going on behind closed doors with my moms best friend and other sister SO SHE THOUGHT until weeks later my mom, dad and other 2 brothers and their kids (who were like mine if we were to define an unconditional ❤️ between us, as my brother told me the last night we were best friends in a black out drunken state (feb 14, 2012) “we asked them if they could spend a day with anyone they wanted in the world who would it be? uncle mike” and he told me until the next morning my sister-in-law was ROARING mad because he still goes to a place he would rather escape than deal with her, he told me daily the 4yrs we spoke nearly every day as a brother and best friend.

If analogy’s could compare in our society currently, I was like Chloe Kardashian with ALL her nieces and nephews, an energy of ❤️ that glows and lifts them up with a special place they all engage. True family in its purest form, no matter what anyone says the Kardashian’s are a real family who have stood the test of time and NO MAtTER what anyone has to say, (as rich & powerful even) they are relatable, diverse, individually each owns person and #ACCEPTED no matter what, I bet they would accept me if I had that kind of family but different is bad in mine and well when whoever I am is still denied for who I am, not allowed a voice at all, if I don’t agree with how they think and behave well….

That cunt I spoke of earlier, Maureen the next morning threw her typical internal temper tantrum as I sat beside her on the couch she basted with cartoons about 7:30 to punish her husband, my brother John for going to bed about 3 DRUNKER than I have ever seen or witnessed and although he texted me from the plane in FL upon landing to hide 2 bottles one of whiskey, the other I had to write down (as I don’t do hard liquor) but strong and straight almost both bottles he drank and a carton of cigarettes.

What he said to me that night after they got home from a “valentines dinner”she stormed right into the room with my youngest nephew already asleep and so I was on the phone with a friend so John got right to his text order as I wrapped up my call with a friend where I am from in NY he kept stumbling in to say “you almost off” ? About 1/2 hour went by when I got off and went outside to the sun room and asked “why was she so cold to me today?”

He replied “do you want to know the truth?” I said as soon as I go to the bathroom and……

Rush

CityBarn/day 1

February 2, 2018 CityBarn, the night before the horses arrive who gave me back life. I talk to them where they live currently in the north Midwest outside all the time even when it was -24 two weeks ago, today -5, 27/7 in extreme heat and cold 365, I tell them I’m sorry humanity has failed them and I know the fright from family so I too have been a fight or flight human who will never EVER hurt them and that I unconditionally love each and everyone of them horses, 26, 18 pregnant. They are not mine except one once I accepted her months after by birthday 2017 because I swore not to let down my wall at ALL for anything or anyone since February 14, 2012. Time is many things, experience to me, a sadness in humanity starting with my dna family and a sister-in-god!!! Anyway these horses have shown me a level of love man has failed one another let alone many innocent horses. Experience gives you lots of information along with time to define what I’ve always tried to use, my intuition but it’s been abused, confused not allowed to use.
I tell each and every one how much I love them individually & unconditionally with tlc, acceptance, patience, kindness, and never will I hurt them bc I know the level of cruelty human beings are, even in 2018 and although my modern American family let go of me at 40 for an injustice that circles in a cycle and I am ashamed and disgraced to be related to them. To put myself, my mom and dad in positions of conviction from your own opinions, and it’s final, NO TRIAL and 100% denial and thrown away those closest to “kids” is a on them and SHAME on two parents who use kids as pawns to make their own rules and or “laws”.
Well
No maps or short cuts here, tomorrow begins a journey of many years to come with unconditional love starting with day one, Tomorrow February 3, 2018. CityBarn on the farm as we learn along side of horse and man, back to basics it is. Miss Mother Nature and Father Time will define my experience of choice this time for the first time in a nearly 47 year old life who has had to hold EVERYTHING inside forcefully, intentionally, no voice, no choice until now.. so I gotta let it all out.
Day 1 12:02 am February 3, 2018 Central Standard Time..
Let’s define
City Barn, until morning and new lives goodnight.

href=”https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/creature/”>Creature

Is disturbing to me of the majority, who have this desirable greed they continually feed known as a disease.
Not to them, let alone they ever even hear tbemselves and they think they do with absolute delusion, make know mistakes there is no confusion with their chosen creature behavior that hide their REAL inner NATURE of the BEAST that they have become or are!
They hold no internal scars so they become creatures of the very worst of humanity even in 2018. Showing face at weddings and funerals, these diseased functioning individuals turn it on, fake and pretend like my brother and his wife who sacrifice nothing until they kill another’s character and spare nothing from their most unhealthy opinions which then make life altering decisions as NOT to face their own insecure place. CoNTROLING CREATUREs who hide what is really behind their eyes full of lies that eventually decide who they DENY any ounce of civilized, communication as parents, children, siblings, who turn into GOD with all others lives and saddest of all is the creatures of their own as they teach them the most disgusting, disrespectful, cowardly way to be a human being by (SHEER or SHEAR) example from two unknowns of themselves who feel better hurting others for personal gain and leVe another in suffering pain but care is no where anymore and you end of a creature on the run for fear of family becoming my enemy even with 6 years approaching to the day and he date they delivers so much hate, February 14,2012. His drunken bindage blackouts that keep coming up and he can’t seem to shut up with WHAT comes out and at different times when he goes dark. Her control of her creature, my brother is enough to stop at nothing to have him rid his own dna as she sprays it in his ear only for him to command to her demands, sadly his lips have become her clit! REAL SHIT and 100 ligit.
Yup and BEYOND… the very sick brained creatures they have chosen to become but do so as cowardly as any human being that hold themselves in a level of humanity that can see outside of thee self. Not John and Maureen, queen and her cunt, husband John.
I pray for their kids but NEVER want to breathe the same air they do because they are the farthest away from anything authentic, original, man kind, they live as walking dead, and will until their painful existence in the end!

We SEE and KNoW what you both are!
Creatures for sure and in 2018 it all goes on behind CLOSED doors.

NOT anyMORE🧐

The creatures of human beings in 2018

via Daily Prompt: Sympathize

This is all brand new so I hope to get help and or any information or suggestion upon my new journey of living with pasture/brewed mares. I sympathize with them in a way man behaves in unkind ways.

Day 1 has begun, February 3, 2018 and I await for the delivery of 6 foals, 2 pregnant mares and a yearling. I sympathize with helping them live a better life.
So excited and nervous as I prepare the horse barn and they have never been inside so it will all be new for them and me with TLC.

Daily Prompt: Sympathize

CityBarn/day 1

February 2, 2018 CityBarn, the night before the horses arrive who gave me back life. I talk to them where they live currently in the north Midwest outside all the time even when it was -24 two weeks ago, today -5, 27/7 in extreme heat and cold 365, I tell them I’m sorry humanity has failed them and I know the fright from family so I too have been a fight or flight human who will never EVER hurt them and that I unconditionally love each and everyone of them horses, 26, 18 pregnant. They are not mine except one once I accepted her months after by birthday 2017 because I swore not to let down my wall at ALL for anything or anyone since February 14, 2012. Time is many things, experience to me, a sadness in humanity starting with my dna family and a sister-in-god!!! Anyway these horses have shown me a level of love man has failed one another let alone many innocent horses. Experience gives you lots of information along with time to define what I’ve always tried to use, my intuition but it’s been abused, confused not allowed to use.
I tell each and every one how much I love them individually & unconditionally with tlc, acceptance, patience, kindness, and never will I hurt them bc I know the level of cruelty human beings are, even in 2018 and although my modern American family let go of me at 40 for an injustice that circles in a cycle and I am ashamed and disgraced to be related to them. To put myself, my mom and dad in positions of conviction from your own opinions, and it’s final, NO TRIAL and 100% denial and thrown away those closest to “kids” is a on them and SHAME on two parents who use kids as pawns to make their own rules and or “laws”.
Well
No maps or short cuts here, tomorrow begins a journey of many years to come with unconditional love starting with day one, Tomorrow February 3, 2018. CityBarn on the farm as we learn along side of horse and man, back to basics it is. Miss Mother Nature and Father Time will define my experience of choice this time for the first time in a nearly 47 year old life who has had to hold EVERYTHING inside forcefully, intentionally, no voice, no choice until now.. so I gotta let it all out.
Day 1 12:02 am February 3, 2018 Central Standard Time..
Let’s define
City Barn, until morning and new lives goodnight.